That F-word known as FYP has been totally concluded, with the poster presentation done.
Looking back, it really wasn't as bad as I had perceived. In fact, the 6-month long project didn't make me a no-lifer, and the mundane experimental days weren't tough too. Report writing days were stressful, but it was just a sleepless stretch of 10 days, at its very worst. Poster presentation didn't take up much time too. It wasn't totally smooth-sailing, but it had never been discouraging.
With the conclusion of today's FYP events, the first thing I did when I came back home, was to write an email to my supervising Professor and my mentor. I might have thanked them before this, but today I just had this urge to send a final Thank You email to them, because I really couldn't have been satisfied with my project without their help and advices. (And I probably won't get to see them again?)
As part of today's events, professors and people from the industry were invited to view the posters. I was initially hoping that nobody would drop by mine, so that I need not have to go through another round of presentation to anyone, including guests, again.
Then, I happened to be nearby my poster when a prof (who moderated and graded my presentation) brought 2 guests to mine. Actually, I should really thank this prof, for making me feel that my work was recognised. I could have stayed away from my own poster and missed any interaction with any guests, then ultimately feel that the event was a waste of time. But thankfully it didn't turn out that way. Although the 2 guests that were brought here might not have been very interested in what little project I had done, their presence had actually given me a little boost in satisfaction, because, at the very least, I really felt that I had not wasted my time doing the project. I actually felt good to have audience listening, and it was really dumb of me to have thoughts otherwise.
I can't help but have slightly mixed feelings, during the moment when I dismounted my poster from the board. It was to be rolled up -- probably never going to see the world in full glory again. But I was glad I had completed this, no matter the grades.
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FYP might have been done, but heavy workload prevails. Prior to last year, I used to think that FYP must be the worst thing ever. It really isn't, because a Design Project is worse. And that's what I'm gonna be busy with for the next month, before I say goodbye to undergraduate life.
人生是黑白的.
11:59 PM <3
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Inertia.
It's the time of the semester again, when I'm faced with tests and deadlines and what not. Only that this final semester upped a notch -- with something known as a Design Project.
I swear that Design Projects are the worst things that can happen to me in my Chemical Engineering education. Right, I'm supposed to design a full-fledged column, right down to the very details and specifications of everything inside and outside. But, er, professor, I've returned whatever you taught me 2 years ago back to you.
As if such a big project is not enough, I'm slapped with tests and other projects and presentations. No, having 1001 things to do, isn't the worst thing yet. It's inertia.
Look, deadlines are coming by the hour. I've marked them down on my organiser. I've got the dates imprinted in my mind. But I just can't bring myself to start. Even though I'm convinced that I work better when deadlines are horribly near, I also know no better that I will regret it when the time comes, with the lack of sleep and that fever that usually accompanies.
Overcoming inertia is something I must work on. I realised that I've told myself about 'Tomorrow', but it seems that 'Tomorrow' never comes.
人生是黑白的.
12:14 AM <3
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