Saturday, October 01, 2005
yeah i juz won my third cd from ufm..
this time, its an english album.."tales from turnpike house".. with 18 tracks in all.. i bet no one will know abt this album, cos it isn't that kind of pop album.. rather, its one that really gives u the comfortable feeling.. i kindof like it la, cos all 18 songs give me the relaxed feeling.. so good that i dozed off while listening.. ok, this shall be the remedy to any coming insomnia nights... thanks so much, ufm..
today oso went paya lebar post centre to collect my np testimonial.. well, actually it was supposed to be mailed to my house from bedok green, but no one was at home when the registered mail came.. so, had to go down personally.. thankfully i live so near it la, if not i'll be complaining already.. well, the testimonial wasn't impressive la, but thats what to be expected actually.. during the year of service, although i've organised no less than 8 special events and conducted countless weekly trainings, i don't really think that i've made any difference.. seriously, somehow i think my services were kindof.. useless? well that i really duno la.. hopefully the next posted CI can do a much much much better job than i did, and work better with the teachers..hMm...
i tried to flip through the 'basic safety driving theory' book this afternoon, and completed half of it in like 30 mins.. those road signs and road signals seem to be quite manageable la.. i muz finish the book by tuesday, cos its the day i'll be taking the trial test.. friday will be the actual basic theory test.. i haf to pass it lor.. cos it would directly affect my post a-level great plans.. muaahhaha.
人生是黑白的.
9:43 PM <3
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Friday, September 30, 2005
was quite shocked to find out that only 80 ppl from the cohort are going for grad nite.. this equates to juz 8 pathetic tables.. and i tink the 5 teachers are quite kelian.. cos, if by next week, they still cant get the minimum number of ppl going, the grad nite has to be called off, for the first time in tj history.. and, the ting is, the 5 teachers haf to undertake the $7500 burden of the deposit.. hMm. kelian kelian..
but still, i'll stay by my decision on not going. there are few reasons that can justify my decision..
1. my class and my friends are ALL not going. so, wads the point of going alone?
2. 85 bucks isn't all that u have to pay. don't forget all the implicit costs that u have to incur, in the form of getting new clothes..
3. the class MAY be having a chalet on the same day..
4. i haf too many post exam plans.. and ALL require money money money.. if i go grad nite, i'll have to sacrifice some of my plans, which i dun wan.. the opportunity costs are greater ok..
yup. so i wont be going for grad nite la.. no matter how much of deposit that they are going to lose, no matter whether this is the first ever batch in 28 years that dun haf a grad nite.. sorry, im not being heartless, nor do i not have college spirit. i juz dun tink i haf much of a choice???
人生是黑白的.
8:52 PM <3
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Thursday, September 29, 2005
its officially back to pre-prelims mugging routine.. today stayed at sch lib from 1pm to almost 7pm.. but damn unproductive la, cos as usual, its laughter and chats.. haha.
yesterday got the pearls report draft.. got '5points=E'.. but the ting is, haven add some other stuffs la.. but i really really tink that fau sucks la.. i guess its the worst and most regrettable decision i've made in tj.. shouldnt have joined such a cca..(please, im NOT targetting at anyone.. cos really, the committee has done well, but wad im not happy with, is the system and the teacher in-charge). Er.
got back econs today. kindof mixed in feelings la. i got 61%, likely a 'C' grade, which i tink is not too bad la, but den, i failed 2 out of 3 essays.. den case study was juz a barely pass la.. so right now im still quite worried abt the subj, considering that its a very unstable and inconsistent subj.. my grades can fluctuate so much lor, gives me such a big uncertainty for A levels. and considering that its already 5+ weeks to the actual exam and yet i can still fail in 2 essays.. this really shows that my content is still not well-grasped. micro or macro, both still very ill-prepared. i muz really say, the 61% was very much juz by luck, cos it was helped by drq, which is a component that cant be prepared at all. ok enuf said abt econs.
i've started to start new habits.. im sleeping earlier these days.. at 1130pm. previously i had always been sleeping past 12 lor.. averaging 1230am.. so i can enjoy almost 7 hrs of slp daily.. not only that, i hope that can improve my face quality.. MAYBE the slow recovery is due to insufficient slp.. so i hope it MAY change it back la.. at least faster abit?
人生是黑白的.
10:03 PM <3
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Tuesday, September 27, 2005
had a power trip juz now.. so the house was in total darkness for half an hour..
actually, even without any lights on, its still very very bright lor, cos of the surrounding streets and the brightly lit buildings around.. the feeling of pitch-darkness can never be experienced in singapore la..
but nevertheless, the half hour short circuit still reminded me of the unforgettable days during OCIP last december at sabah.. i really really really really miss the great 14 days, when we lived in a remote village deep in the mountains, together wif zillions of insects, big n small, all around us..those were the total stress-free days that i really really hoped to be leading lor.. its like, every single day would have new surprises awaiting for u.. and the fresh air, cool surroundings and the im-willing-to-die-for star studded night sky, really made those days the happiest days of my life yet.. haiz. i really hope to go back this year leh. really lor. if not, i duno when there'll be any 2nd chances.. togudon, sabah, u haf to wait for me k...?
today was the 1st day of prelim results release.
when i got back maths, i was totally shocked. i couldnt have imagined i could get such 'good grades' when i leave out 20 marks and 10 marks respectively in each paper. so, when i knew paper 1 was 68 and paper 2 was 71, i almost died.. though the grades are still not anywhere near my own ideal target, but im thankful already, cos getting a B for maths is the BEST GRADE I'VE EVER GOTTEN IN TJ!!! I've never got past a 'C' in jc b4 lor, so.. got improvement liao la.. i shall work hard towards an 'A' de.
physics came wif gd news for me too.. similar to maths, my best grade ever for physics was a 'C' lor, and i failed in 3 out of 5 physics lecture tests.. but im going to get a 'B' for physics as well.. so its ANOTHER RECORD BROKEN!! Phew. Haf to thank mr desai.. hee. he still encouraged me that i can do BETTER in A levels.. Rest assured i will!! But Paper 2 was quite bad la, only had 53/90.. it was the easy paper 3 that helped me secured a 87/110.. duno if i should rejoice about the marks in paper 3, cos seriously, it was relatively easy, compared to previous years'.. but heck, that wun bring me off-guard de..
hMm but chem wasnt that ideal.. it was way way way too far from my ideal grade.. cos chem will still stay for a 'C' lor. And i've been getting 'C' for all the past major exams.. Chem is really a heavy subject la.. and seriously, i haf tried my best already.. there's simply too much to swallow la. i'll be stronger when A levels near. Watch out.
mugging shall return..
人生是黑白的.
8:38 PM <3
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Monday, September 26, 2005
went k box today.. long time no sing le, think is ever since that genting trip?? whoa that's 2 months le.. so long sia..
hMm. went for royz, yehlin, xiang, jennifer and mok lor.. at tamp kbox..
den actually the initial plan was to MUG together after kboxing de.. but in the end, we went on to play pool.. and again.. long time never play le.. can't even remember where was the last time i played.. or rather, cant even remember playing it this year.. mayb got la, but my memory fades easily.. errr..
den decided to go yoshinoya to eat.. but in the end, it evolved into hours of gossip.. hMm.. it started off wif our dear squadmate, **** ****'s catch la.. started by royz lor.. oops.. den in the end went on and on with updates of various sqdmates' gossips la.. den peilin oso came along lor. den they were quite interested to dig out my secrets.. well, not so easy la.. but in the end, they managed to dig abit la.. actually, duno y they only digged so little.. only stopped at the sec3/4 stage.. if they had continued to press me and asked further, they might have benefitted more.. haha but its ok de.
gossipped for 2 hours later, we went jennifer's house.. wanted to check out **** ****'s catch's blog.. aha. everyone had gotten so curious of that legendary blog la, after royz's intro... and all of us have our common opinions, which cant be said here though..
argh. hours more to dying.
-i really dun dare to imagine how Mr Lee will scold me again.
-i really dun dare to imagine how Mr Desai will look at me with his disappointed eyes again.
-i really dun dare to imagine how Mr Goh will tell me 'its an easy A level-standard paper' again.
-i really dun dare to imagine how Mrs Low will return me a badly-done CSQ/DRQ/EQ papers again.
-i really dun dare to imagine how Mr Tong will comment on how bad my essay content is again.
how?
人生是黑白的.
11:04 PM <3
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weee.. so excited that i've finally penned my first chinese song. haha, finally accomplished something that i've wanted to for many years..
THE PROCESS*choosing a storyline: inspired by 'The Myth', i decided to refer to the love story in the movie as a source of inspiration..
*the accompanying equipment: 2 dictionaries, 2 rough papers, 1 pen
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the frustration: yes, very very frustrating when the correct words juz dun get into ur head.. there were instances when i had to edit, then edit again, then more editing to certain phrases that dun seem right.. one of the phrases took almost an hour before i am satisfied with it.. then there are oso some words that i am still not quite satisfied la.. but juz haf to blame it on my poor command of the chinese language lor.. haha
*the duration: 2 hours. i guess this should be very very short, compared to those very pro lyricist? i duno la.. but 2 hours was wad i had..
alright, here it is... but the ting is, the song is still tune-less.. i still can't think of a suitable tune to fit the song yet.. cos the tune has to bring out the feel of the song.. that is, to bring out the melancholy of the story.. so i guess i need much more time to craft out a good tune..
but i still hope i can get the help of ppl la, cos i cant compose good tunes de.. i've tried it last time, but i guess it failed terribly la.. (so if anyone who happens to chance upon this page, and is interested to help me compose a tune, pls tell me k.. den we can work together.. hahaha. sounds like though im a pro...)
ok so here's how the song goes.. i've actually come up with the song structure.. like how many times to repeat, when the chorus repeats, when is the bridge and so on.. haha.
永恒的誓言
~作于2005年9月24日~
试着回忆当年 挽回幕幕画面
闭着双眼的我 入梦与你相会
好想倒流时间 回到悲剧之前
不知梦中的你 何时与我相会
横跨空间的爱 多伟大多坎坷
除了你 只有你 让我非活下不可
Chorus:
守候过千年 等待过万秋
只想寻求昨日的幸福
但归巢的你 已不再是你
永恒的誓言 最后没继续
好想倒流时间 回到悲剧之前
不知梦中的你 何时与我相会
横跨空间的爱 多伟大多坎坷
除了你 只有你 让我非活下不可
(Repeat Chorus)
曾经度过的 每一分 每一秒
为何只能 存进梦境深处
(Repeat Chorus)
永恒的誓言 最终要放弃
人生是黑白的.
3:35 AM <3
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i am greatly affected by a movie that i watched 2 days ago.. so let me juz blog out the whole story here for remembrance sake..
THE MYTH (Shen Hua)Jack (jackie chan) had been dreaming of his past life time and again.. he was a General Meng Yi, a Qin General.. It was a chaotic time, and there were wars... not only between countries, but also between rival generals.. There was one day, an enemy country decided to send one of their best princesses to be Qin shi huang's concubine, something likened to a peace accord.. that princess is none other than yushu (kim hee seon).. BUT, yushu's ex fiance came around and decided to take her away.. so a round of fighting took place, between him and general meng yi, who had to protect yushu's life, for she is going to be the emperor's concubine.. den for some reasons, during one of the fights, both mengyi and yushu fell off the cliff into the sea........
back to the present, william, who is a physicist and also jack's fren, had been studying about the possibility of levitation, for he tinks that if he succeeds, he can be the greatest scientist in the world.. so he went to look for jack, to head to the ancient city of Dasar, where there's a sacred temple where it was said that a monk could levitate.. At the sacred temple, the 2 dressed like the fellow followers and sneaked into a secret chamber.. Inside, they were shocked to see a coffin and a sword hanging in mid air! there was a weird stone somewhere near, and the curious william tried to remove it.. he did it, but it caused the coffin and the sword crashing down to the ground..the coffin opened and jack saw a portrait.. it carried the painting of yushu, the gal in his dreams!! at the same time, outside the chamber, the monk, who was levitating in the air, also came tumbling down.. it was then that they found out, that the ppl were able to use an asteroid to sustain objects in air..
soon, 2 highly skilled dasar fighters entered the chamber to kill the 2 intruders.. the skilled jack managed to handle them well.. so the 2 ran out and escaped.. but the thousands of followers were also in hot pursuit, chasing them to a dead end.. william was able to escape through a helicopter that was earlier prepared.. jack was left there to fight, cos the driver of the helicopter didnt want to wait, for safety reasons.. at his wits' end, jack jumped off the cliff..
back to the past, after mengyi and yushu fell off the cliff, they managed to survive and hid inside a cliff.. once, a few soldiers came and attempted to take yushu away, but mengyi was able to fight them off, but he suffered a severe slash at the waist and went unconscious.. yushu used her hair to help to stitch his wound.. quite amazing though.. then another time, it was snowing outside the cave. mengyi had to stand guard outside the cave to protect the princess.. yushu decided to get him back into the cave, but to her horror, he was already unconscious, as the weather was too drastic.. she hydrated him by melting ice in her mouth and channelled the water into his mouth (like kissing..).. she gave him warmth by making use of her clothing to cover him up... days later, the weather turned fine and they continued on their journey back to xi'an.. yushu, who had grown to like mengyi, danced for him.. but he had been very reluctant to watch, as he believed that he couldnt be so close to an emperor's concubine... when they finally reached the border of xi'an, yushu was very unwilling to enter, as she didnt want to marry qin shi huang.. she requested mengyi to bring her away, to anywhere.. but mengyi rejected, asking her to promise that she had to live on, no matter what, for him and for her own people.. she agreed, to live on, for his sake...
back to the present, after jack fell off the cliff, he was badly injured, but he was saved by an indian woman, who was playing with an elephant. she brought him to see her uncle, a renowned marital arts teacher.. the teacher found out jack's motive of visit and why the sacred temple was wrecked by him and william.. their conversation was rather humourous.. very soon later, the police tracked jack down.. the indian woman helped him escape.. there was a scene where jack disguised himself someone blowing a duno-wad instrument, but in the end, the tune attracted a cobra, and so the police got him again.. but the indian woman and jack were good fighters and the action scenes were really interesting.. one of the scenes include them fighting on a conveyor belt of glue.. those action scenes really got everyone laughing and applauding jack's brilliance and talent at the same time.. really wonderful and joyful watching those scenes.. and so, jack and the woman got away from the police.. the indian woman arranged for a boat to send jack back to hongkong where he would return the portrait and the sword to the museum.. the portrait was then returned to dasar..
back to the past, the emperor was dying.. but he had an order.. that all concubines had to be entombed with him when he died.. mengyi didnt want yushu to die with qin shi huang.. so he was extra determined to get the 'longevity pill', from some rebels.. and so he led a big troop to fight the rebels, who were in turn led by other generals.. the fight between all the generals was a massive one.. alot of casualties here n dere.. eventually, mengyi's side got the pill, and they were rushing back. however, the rebel general killed one of the generals on mengyi's side, hence crippling them.. mengyi decided to stay on to find the rebels and gave general nangong the responsibility to transport the pill to the emperor.. "you muz bring it to the emperor. only that can the princess be saved...." after a long fight with the soldiers, mengyi was eventually axed by another general, beheading him..............
back at the present, william went to look up his ex boss, someone who was in favour of looting from ancient tombs.. i cant remember his name.. call him Mr X la.. den Mr X wanted to make use of jack to bring him to another ancient tomb.. he knew about jack's dreams about the qin general.. he had a hunch that jack would eventually bring him to somewhere.. hence, he got william to lure him to follow his dreams, to the waterfall where jack had also been dreaming about.. meanwhile, jack was really determined to enter the waterfall, as in, enter the cave that lies behind in the waterfall.. that was in his dreams.. hence, he made use of some equipment to abseil and enter the waterfall and went right inside into the cave....
once right inside, Mr X bombed open it, and gained access to it.. but the impact somehow injured jack and brought him unconscious.. at this moment... yushu appeared.... its juz like a fairy appearing to save him.. she recognised jack and took him for mengyi.. rejoiced, she told she had kept her promise to live on... for him... and she really waited for so long, since the qin dynasty.. general nangong was inside too.. and after explaining a little, they both took jack for mengyi.. the curious jack then asked them y were they there.. well, actually that time when nangong transported the pills to the emperor, the physicians asked him to take one down, for fear it was poison.. they also gave one to yushu.. and so both of them were able to attain longevity.. and the special ting about this qin shi huang tombstone, was that everyting was in midair!! so actually back at the olden times, qinshihuang had already gotten the secret of levitation..by using the asteroids to create a mid-air hanging palace, housed in this cave no one knows..
Mr X and william came in.. jack realised he had been made use of.. it evolved into a fight.. nangong was badly injured by the Mr X..(which i tink abit weird.. he was a general leh). mr X wanted to get the longevity pills.. and so he decided to climb up the palace to find.. but in the meantime, william, being curious again, decided to play with some stones or wadever ting again.. but he din read a note there that said someting like "if this is removed, annihilation will follow".. wadever tht follows could be expected la.. the ancient tombstone.. the entire cave.. was coming down gradually..
jack told yushu..."let me take u out of here".. but at the entrance of the cave, yushu asked him, "jack... u really aren't mengyi...?? then im not leaving.. i shall wait for mengyi.. he told me to wait for him, i shall keep my promise.. sorry.. he wun die... he will come back......" with that, she was lost in the cave.. jack den quickly made for the exit, juz timely before the cave closed..
back at hongkong, life had returned for jack.. but the difference was, he had lost his friend, william and perhaps his recurring dream... but wad remains, is a beautiful memory and an untold heartening love story..
人生是黑白的.
2:51 AM <3
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Sunday, September 25, 2005
hmm.. juz came back from yang's house.. had a wonderful steamboat dinner with the class!!
well, 10 of us turned up.. got me yixiang weiliang chongyang wuliang pinting jingting peishan minhwee winnie..
really ate alot of tings la.. after the very filling steamboat dinner, still got ice cream, nata de coco and my favourite cheesecake lor. totally shuang.. its really another opportunity for me to gain weight... muahahahaha
den after all those food, we played the classic name-calling game, which got everyone so high-ed up.. as usual.. and the gals almost brought the whole house crashing down with their high pitched screams.. lol.
but still, glad that we could all enjoy a while first b4 doomsday come la.. well, my doomsday will start on tuesday, all the way until i receive back my last paper.. haiz. but anyway, got to thank yang for his house and his hospitality.. yeah.~
人生是黑白的.
11:28 PM <3
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