Saturday, December 30, 2006
I am very sian.
I'll have to report for duty hours later, and i'll be missing out on all the fun today.
#1: 4B BBQ. It seems like this year's annual bbq is drawing the most number of ppl.. And there are some classmates whom i've not met for years.. Being excluded from major gatherings like this makes me feel very awkward. hah, i duno how to describe.
#2: Ocip steamboat. coincidentally, my ocip friends are meeting for a steamboat in the evening as well. but even without my duty, i'll still be missing this, cos i've promised the 4B bbq earlier.
But sadly, really very sadly, i'll be dragging my feet back to ship in the morning. It would be most demoralising and daunting. Hopefully i can overcome all that by keeping myself occupied with the newspapers/jap homework/korean vcds that im bringing in..
AND, not just 30th im activated for duty. I kena on 1st JAN! Argh, what a way to celebrate new year. To do duty on the very first day of the year has really dampened my spirits of hoping to lead a bright new year ahead.
SOme of you may think that "i'm plainly suay!" BUT, i can tell you, it's all planned and part of the game. I'm NOT SUAY, i'm just BULLIED, cos they will purposely arrange the duties in such a way that the most junior ones will kena the most undesirable days to do duties. Which means to say, i can still expect days like CNY to be spent onboard.
please understand how i feel. It really, really doesnt feel nice. Especially with the thought of you slogging away when THE REST OF THE WORLD is celebrating. arghhhhhhhh.
its gonna be a dull end to year 2006, and a dull start to year 2007.
人生是黑白的.
12:26 AM <3
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