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Thursday, May 04, 2006

My stomach condition over the past 3 days, was rather bad.

Erm, i hope you aren't expecting me to describe what its like, are you?

But, i think its a condition worth worrying.

#1: Its been a long-term, on-and-off condition. Especially over the past 2 years.
#2: It can't be the food. I ate the same food, drank the same drinks as others.

And perhaps also due to this reason --> I read somewhere, sometime ago, that Cancerians need to take extra care of their digestive system. And i thought the advice was kinda true..

And sometimes i would just blame my failed weight-gaining plans on this.

And sometimes, i would just be pessimistic enough to think about whether this would bring me to any big health-related problems in future. In the form of cancers or wadsoever. But of cos i hope that would never happen.

Alright, my stomachache problems aside for the moment.

Being in this urbanised world, its more practical to prepare yourselves to die from illnesses and complications, rather than of old age. Even though medical advancements have steered towards the possibilties of longevity, I would prefer to stand by the belief that at present, most of us would be leading shorter lives, due to both mental stress and environmental influence.

My jc gp tutor brought up, that 1/2 of us will perish from cancer-related illnesses, while the other 1/2 would be heart-related ailments. Of cos, by choosing to die from heart-related problems might have been better, than dying from a long, torturous, weary and sure-lose fight against cancer. But too bad, we cant choose. If given a choice between the 2, i'll choose heart problems. Get a sudden cardiac arrest, experience hell for that few minutes, and u'll be gone forever. Swift and sweet.

And some other times, i do ponder on whether its better to:
1. lead a long life, say up to 80 years, but not being happy
2. lead a short life, say around 40 to 50 years, but being happy

Both options are equally drooling. By leading a long life, i may be able to do alot more things and perhaps travel a greater distance. But what if the long life includes having to fight illnesses and diseases at the later part, and hence experiencing a hard and tough end to life? On the other hand, by leading a short life, if its possible to live each day in a meaningful way, and letting each day pass in its greatest worth, will it not beat and surpass that of a longer life?

But well, to me, Life's predestined. However, it still matters most how you wanna lead it and let each day pass.

And of cos, i believe that you do have a little say over how you die.

If you wanna die from heart-related problems, just eat all the way to deathbed.

人生是黑白的.
11:00 PM <3

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