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i just feel that time passes abit slow, whenever i wanted it fast. And damn it, its vice versa. It feels as though i've enlisted so long ago. But thats only a matter of 4 months. There's 18 more to endure. Yeah, if you've realised, i've started to become increasingly pessimistic. It hadn't really been the case before 2006. Perhaps its because of the total lack of motivation to think, to do, to care and thus, to look forward to anything. Everything seems bleak and dull. Just when you think weekends are here and its time to enjoy, you start to look forward to it, even if its a blue Monday. Then suddenly, at mid-week, you get the news that you've a weekend (sunday) duty. That spoils it man. Spoils the total optimism. Dampens the mood. Kills the spirit. That would be the 3rd duty this month. The 2nd Sunday duty this month. "There'll be more weekend duties to come." All because of NDP. Hopefully after NDP, things will get fairer. But then again, i prefer to keep optimism low. An NSF can never be hopeful of things.Perhaps you may wonder, Why am i so sour about guard duties? Let me frankly explain. I do not mind doing guard duties. Even if it falls on weekends, and that its only because of a fair routine system. I would gladly fulfill the duties as required, since there's tv, food, aircon, etc. BUT, in a span of just ONE month, i've been slapped with THREE SUNDAYS. My top concern here is my driving lessons ok. With the practical test coming in a few weeks' time, i really cant afford to lose lessons like that. And 3 lessons do make a difference. And between now and the test in july, there'll SURELY be more sunday duties. I really do not want such brainless duties to jeopardise my chances of passing. And its not as if im that rich enough to sell off the duties. Come on, the market rate for a weekend duty is $120. its definitely not worth it.Aaargh. So much for guard duties. My second greatest hate in NS. I apologise for making this entry a dull read. Cos i know not many can connect with me, for doing the most duties compared to others, for a non-RP vocation. But i just wanna let you ppl know, this sunday when i book in early in the morning, I would be dragging myself with a total pessimistic outlook. Freedom in 18 months.
人生是黑白的.
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