yesterday, 080705, was POP day at bgss!
actually, its was really really really really a big big pity, that we r forced to leave the sch by 730pm.. hai.. initially, i planned to have it until 10pm la, den teachers cut cut cut cut cut.. den in the end the programs haf to cut, shortened and some even cancelled.. thats a great disappointment la, considering that its the last day already, esp for the sec 4s.. cos i tink they've been looking forward to it..and i tink they really hoped to haf a nice n enjoyable day.. hAiz. but cant blame the teachers though, cos they've done their best..but i think they could've done better? perhaps try to get the key of the sch gate? perhaps its the school's problem lor.. but it really pains to see that some of the sec4s din enjoy.. its not anyone's fault, its the constraints of the time........
i reached bgss at 1pm.. thats the earliest time i reach dere on a friday training..cos haf to settle some tings la, and wanted to take some fotos too.. den finally, i got to wear tionghan's sch uniform.. den i realised it was a BAD choice.. cos when i pull up his pants, it keeps DROPPING!! his shirt is sooooo big oso.. haha ok, im really tiny n skinny.. malnutritioned, as wad teckkai said... haha.. SO, i used tionghan's nametag as a safety pin to hold the pants... haha.. im sorry if thats disrespectful to his name.. hehe, cos if i dun do that, i cant get out of the toilet.. it IS that serious.. lol.
the feeling of wearing the sch uniform is great lor.. some ppl cant recognise me but the majority were laughing la.. so funny meh...?? hmm... i took fotos in the uniform, which was someting ive been tinking of long ago..cos the uniform is rather unique.. den msWong, mrAzahar, msFung saw oso and they all said i really looked like one of the students. lol.
the sec 4s had a test until 330 lor and the parade was scheduled to start at 345.. ok this is one pity.. cos din haf time to take the sec4s for a last drill session.. haiZ!!! then due to some delays here n dere, the parade started at 405, after that was the ceremony.. gave out CP, NW bronze, BUC, ranks and souvenirs.. congrats to favien n lanlan for getting BUC..they really deserved it, cos of their special services to the unit.. the hand-shaking ceremony followed, but i tink i only shaked 80% of the hands, cos towards the end, it was abit chaotic, cos everyone was trying to escape n run away from having their nicely-polished boots being stepped on.. hee. thanks to me, i started this..bleah. and saw some of them cried... but im quite surprised that only so few cried lor..haha. cos i remembered last time for dhspop, more ppl cried..den when i passed out as nco, tink at least half the sqd cried at least once..incl me la, i tink i cried twice or thrice in the day. lol. perhaps next time during the hand-shaking, sad music has to b played to induce tears..bleah.
after parade besurai and the throwing of berets, the sec 3s did their fancy drill..it was the best performance ive seen them doing.. can still remember the 1st practice, when everyone was so afraid of throwing the rifles and even broke one.. den in subsequent practices, MORE rifles broke and many more dropped without breaking.. heng. wow. really great to c them succeed this time round..did really well.. i was really glad n satisfied.. mayb fancy drill can be passed on down to the juniors starting from this year.. nice nice nice!!
then there was a short time break and we took fotos lor.. vin soph and i took our first ever and last ever fotos in uniform..den took some wif the sec4s too.. den soon after we had a buffet dinner before proceeding to the ava room for the concert..
ok i tink this is another pity..cos ava room lacks the feel of a concert.. den the cool air temp dere oso puts ppl to slp..oops..the hall cannot view video meh.. can ma, but muz set up av equipment only.. den there was another pity lor.. we could only have 45 mins for the concert, cos of time time time time.. which is REALLY TOO SHORT LA.. haiiiiz. den in the end, performance was cut cut cut. sec 1s din perform, sec 2s performance cut short, sec 3s din perform, sec 4s din perform, which i tink was a great pity, den games were cancelled, speech was reduced, sec 1s din have speech, sec 4s din haf speech, CIs speech have to be reduced by 1000%, cos actually i sort of prepared a speech which was abt 10 times longer la.. haha, perhaps its good news to everyone that it had to reduce the speech, but really, i had so much to say.. well well well. so the concert was rushed thru and it really ended at 720, and everyone was chased home.. hai. i feel so sorry for everyone lor.. cos i tink everyone had spent so much time preparing.. esp the sec3s? den in the end, everyting had to be reduced n cancelled cos of time.. argh. and i feel sorry for the sec 4s too.. cos dun tink they really enjoyed their last nite..like i said, its not anyone's fault.. perhaps its the sch, cos the rule is that sch gate closes at 730. pity pity!
hmm and so the pop day ended and i brought home everyting i had a bgss.. actually one year was really short.. it passed without really noticing..so many tings happened, and i guess ive grown up alot.. den its so fast that yesterday was the last day already and ive done so many tings for the last time..
Last time to:
-wear full-uniform, cos no next time already
-identify myself wif npcc, which ive done for the past 6 years, which is exactly 1/3 of my lifetime so far
-be addressed as a CI or a 'sir'
-give commands and be greeted
-give instructions and expect them to be obeyed, cos of the authority
-be officially attached to bgss npcc, cos next time im juz a visitor
-enter the np room without having to ask for permission, cos next time im not even considered an np cadet
-maintain a CI-cadet relationship wif everyone
-scold, cos not CI anymore...but i will still scold if its really serious
-plan and conduct trainings, cos next time i will have no say in everying..it will be the new CI's job
-wear CI shirt, cos next time i dun haf the right to wear it..
-and so many many more.. well. from today onwards im retrenched..lol.
its a little sad to put down everyting.. cos although one year is short, it is still sufficient for someone to build up feelings.. so, having to step out of bgss at 730pm was weird la.. i duno when i will step in again... BUT, im still glad that this one year would certainly be part of a great memory.. the days ive spent here would be unforgettable, and i really feel so lucky to haf decided to go for CI course in june 2004. IF that fateful day i didnt make that decision, things would be so so so much different. my life now will be sooo different.. perhaps i wouldnt enjoy that much now.. perhaps there wun be such a great memory for me to remember.. and oso, bgss wun haf me as a CI lol.. but if i din go for CI course last year, they should be getting MUCH BETTER CIS rite?? oops.. im so sorry to have deprived bgss npcc of a much better CI than me.. sorry sorry. but really, i guess i didnt make the wrong decision to join CI and quit taekwondo. afterall im already black belt..ok, A DAMN lousy one la, but i guess npcc had become my life lor..but right now, i have to leave npcc already, my connections wif npcc shall end here for good.. i can really say I REALISED IVE NEVER REGRETTED.. :D.
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let me take a closer look at my one year stay..
10 july 2004.. i entered this school wif no idea of wad i can expect.. i was abit lost, very uncertain of how the next one year would turn out to be.. i was nervous n scared la..it all seemed so foreign.. den i met mrAzahar, he gave me a gd impression of the place, the unit, the ppl.. den the 1st training.. met the sec 4 ncos, esp the heads.. den they intro-ed us alot to the unit, and slowly slowly, i spent the next few weeks trying to get used to the unit, the system, the way it all worked, everyting.. it was much different from dhs's system, so i wasnt used to it initially.. to be frank, i was shocked at how tings were going on in this unit lor.. really shocked.. i din noe wad to do.. i was so tempted to change everyting, to the way i was familiar wif.. but well, in the end never.. cos perhaps every unit has its own uniqueness.. its own traditions.. so instead of getting ppl to change for me, i have to change myself and get used to everyting..
very soon, msFung approached us n told us abt the 18 september 2004 soccer comp.. bgss is organising a gals soccer comp! oh no, i tot.. msFung was new, and we were new too.. so we had to find our own way to organise this big event.. it was a totally GREAT shock to me, when we were told we cant find referees.. den the CIs had to be referees. OH NO! On that day itself, juz minutes before the 1st match starts, i was still trying to get the rules into my head lor.. but thanks to the current sec 4s and current sec3s for their help, if not i really duno wad will become of me lor.. cos i really duno de.. haha. and on that day, i only blowed whistle twice for every match..once to start the match and once to end. lol. i can remember that day got kokoon jeremy teckkai and some others.. den oso got rajpal n weechang, whose names i only got to noe in this year's nco camp..without them, i really die la.. den some tings oso happened that day, some units werent happy..but im glad that everyting was ok overall.. HMM. this year the comp is coming again..30 july.. haha. hope our gals can do it this time la..last yr we sent 2 teams and both got eliminated on the 1st round..
den i remembered accompanying current sec4s to a guys' soccer comp in a sch in psr.. the 1st match was played against the home team lor.. den we almost won actually.. haha. ok but nvm cos it was a great try..and i tink the sch organised the soccer comp much better than us.. lol .
den we organised nco refresher course during the sept hols too..den refreshed them on their skills n drills n everyting.. den after the exams break, soph came back as a CI and soon after HO came back too..
from then on, the 3 CIs planned n conducted countless trainings, did lectures, took pt, set tests, gave drill tests and oso did the nco camp.. HO was really a gd guide..we were all learning along wif her.. these were great experiences.. and i tink the nco camp was unforgettable lor.. actually i was and is still tinking that it is a big pity that the camp was only 2D1N. TOO short too lor.. didnt have the time to teach alot of things..and i tink the sec 3s still lack alot alot alot of knowledge n skills.. argh.. now dun haf the chance to teach them liao lorrrr.. it was until the nco camp that i got to noe the sec 3s better la.. cos b4 that, i nv took notice of them.. cos their attendance was the worst.. den always din see them.. hmm.
den after nco camp, it was juz a few weeks b4 pop liao lor..
actually looking back, i feel abit guilty la, for doing only so little.. one year is alraedy very short and yet i din raelly do much for the unit.. so feel abit guilty.. i doubt ive made any difference to the unit lehhhh.. haiyoz..
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hmm. now its really the end of the journey la.. i dare to say ive seen SO MUCH in the unit.. thanks bgssnpcc, for helping me to grow n mature, for making me see sooo much more than last time, for giving me the exposure, for letting me serve in this unit n get to noe so many more ppl, for giving me the chance to learn so much too, for giving me such a nice memory, for giving me such a wonderful experience.. i haf so much thanks to say.. cos im REALLY REALLY GRATEFUL.
from the deepest of my heart, i THANK EVERYBODY in the unit for EVERYTING they've done.. cos these ppl are really nice.. they simply rock! im grateful.. im really really raelly grateful.. thanks so so so so much..
i hope the unit can clinch a silver award this year... and i guess, i'll be missing the unit for some time...
人生是黑白的.
10:40 AM <3
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